My favorite action film is HotRod
I wanna meet someone’s who’s going to be like ‘hey wake up I’m taking you on an adventure’
“maybe if i drink another coffee, i will feel better”
“maybe if i buy myself a new sweater, i will feel better”
“maybe if i get so drunk i can’t see, i will feel better”
“maybe if i sleep for fourteen hours, i will feel better”
maybe if i fuck another person to feel needed/wanted, i will feel better
maybe if i have so much to do i can’t think, i will feel better
maybe if i don’t talk about how much i hurt, i will feel better
No one surprises me anymore.
I try my best to keep my hopes way low so I’m not so disappointed when someone fucks me over. I just expect broken promises now. It’s easier, and when said promises don’t break, I get excited and happy.
But then lots of times I decided to put my trust in others, and the words they tell me, because maybe sometimes people aren’t so bad and sometimes I like to give them the benefit of the doubt.
Don’t do that.
Don’t do that unless someone has shown and proved to you that they are worthy of your time.
I have trust issues for a reason, and each of those reasons have made it so difficult for me to form any type of relationship with anyone.
Questioning everybody’s motives is so mentally exhausting. I am just tired.